Potential Energy
Motion — before being motion
I should’ve written. I know.
My to-write list is huge right now. From broad themes to very specific technical articles, It has a good amount of potential stuff to be written there. Some real-life examples, for your pleasure:
My work as a developer focused on communication while doing a project for HUK Autowelt, a German insurance company;
Business books for non-business people;
I used to be a professional photographer and now I can’t shoot shit;
Moving to Germany & decluttering — a search for fewer clothes, less stuff, and less worry (I’ve been in Germany for almost 5 months and this is still on the to-do list);
How I auto-generate all my social images for my blog posts using Puppeteer;
How I bypassed NextJS file organization and scripted a way to copy all images and files automatically to the public folder while updating them on the generated HMTLs from MDX (this one is very technical & specific);
A search for personal style — and how that made me think about gender.
All of this is still unwritten. The ideas flow freely in my mind and I believe with conviction that all of this will become amazing material… but, for now, they are just potential material.
This makes me question the whole potentiality of things around me. How things are just waiting to happen, how some of them need just a little push.
Spatial potency
I’m living in Europe, as I said, for almost 5 months. This brings so much new potential, the opening of brand new, unthinkable doors. I’m writing this as I wait for my plane to Paris, which was bought fairly cheap and will take roughly 2h to fly from Munich to the destination.
This was absolutely unthinkable when I was in Brazil. Going to another country without needing to:
Change the currency
Get a visa
Spend 6+ hours on a plane
Do lots of planning ahead
And here I am, casually speaking with some friends — some of them with really good newsletters (in Portuguese) — about going to Switzerland for some days or spending a weekend in Amsterdam. All of this potential might become motion, rather sooner than later.
Relationship potency
I’ve been feeling alone lately, and I’m sad to acknowledge this is kind of my own fault.
I’m saying this because no one will ring my doorbell, come to me and say: hey, I want to be your friend, let’s hang out. There’s some action needed on that front to make these things happen
This past week I had my first kiss on German grounds. We were at a fetish party, I was shy and very observant, they were being untied after a spanking session. I was insecure — as always — but they looked at me with those beautiful eyes that say, without saying, “I’m interested in you”.
All it took was a little push, months ago.
Bear with me:
First, I went on Reddit and asked if there were any polyamorous groups in Munich. Someone redirected me to this kinky organization that promotes events, in which, after some research, I found out about some meetings with the poly theme happening quite close to my apartment.
There, I met some people and one of them invited me to another event, by another group, not focused on poly but more generally on kinky (we usually are at similar spaces). Then, I went to this other meeting and talked to people, introduced myself, and tried to create rapport. After that, the organizer saw me as a trustworthy person, so he invited me to this not disclosed event. This time, I met some other people and they were planning to go to this kinky party. I wasn’t planning on going because it was far from the trains and buses.
Saturday, one of these people asked me if I wanted a ride, and I said… yes. Even not being in the mood, even with thinking I should stay home, even while thinking “how the hell am I going to go back from there?”. I put my stockings (heh) on and went to the party. I had a great time. I kissed a very beautiful person. I felt seen and desired.
All of that because I took action, months ago, turning potential relationships into kinetic ones.
Presence potency
The main problem right now is that other stuff is moving. I have been spending a lot of time with work, and I’m changing apartments soon (oh! That’s a good topic to talk about, how I rented an apartment in the crazy real-state situation in Munich by putting an ad in a real, physical, printed newspaper), and I couldn’t even finish a series that I’ve been waiting at least a DECADE to watch — The Sandman is amazing, go watch it. I’m trying to juggle all the things I want to do but some of them have to move states first. Before turning more potential into kinetic, I need some of the current kinetic to go potential.
So, I’m here. Potentially here. Might not be, sometimes. I’ll come back, I promise. I didn’t forget you and I hope you didn’t forget me.
Is there anything potential in your life right now? Something feasible, that just needs a little flick of a finger, an email, a conversation, an action, to become kinetic? Talk to me, let’s trade ideas.
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I have been spending a shitload of relax time playing Pathfinder: Wrath of the Righteous. It’s been an amazing ride: what a great RPG game with some awesome characters and nice story. There’s, sometimes, too much writing, but I can deal with that. My character is a… well, believe it or not, human kineticist.
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I would love to write about Sandman as Aline Valek and Claudia Fusco did, but I won’t. I can’t put it into words, I think. Go watch it, now, even if you didn’t read the comic. Then, later, go read it. It’s absolutely amazing.
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The third book of The Poppy Wars, The Burning God, is dragging a little. I’m at 40% on Kindle and, well, sometimes I read a lot of pages then realize I don’t know what the hell is going on. Let’s see if it gets me the same way the others did — because they got me, really, and I highly recommend them if you want to read fantasy written by a woman in a non-European setting with a female main character that literally, later in the story, completely burns the balls and dick of a rapist.